It's Only A Season
After a pause of getting adjusted to life, I am back! Let's talk about that for a moment, because I think it is important:
My husband, Bennett is in the Army National Guard. He is full time active duty reserve, so he wears two hats. His full time job side is hat number one and his reserve/unit side is hat number two. Starting August 2nd, he was gone for 22 days on his unit side. His last few days he gives me a call and says " I have to go down to the Keys." Home for less than 48 hours, then headed away. Two days into being in the Keys, Hurricane Dorian was headed towards the Florida Coast and was state activated on his unit side. Home for less than 24, gone for 5 days. He was released from his unit side since he is based out of Pinellas County in St. Petersburg, Florida. And to put our life into perspective it was our first hurricane we ever went through together in 5 years. 9 days after that Bennett and I took a trip to California, (which I will talk about in my next blog post).
September, along with it being the birthday month, was also a 4 week virus with both of our kids. Nothing too major, but contagious enough to give it to our babysitter TWICE and my sweet sister in law, who agreed to watch the boys for 5 days along with her 6 month old baby. Thea, I cannot thank you enough for taking care of those boys and giving Bennett and I the opportunity to take our first big trip without our kids, and the first trip longer for the three days since our honeymoon three and a half years ago.
Y 'all, leaving my kids like that was HARD. It took me a good 48 hours of being upset and I have never left my kids sick ever. Like, I have not been present for bridal showers that I coordinated because my children are sick ever. Bennett already had everything planned and they didn't have a fever or were going to need to go to the hospital kind of virus, only LOTS OF POOP. Sometimes when things are out of your control it forces you out of your comfort zone.
This is all meaning to say that this was a rough month for the LaCour family. But, it can always be worse, and we are all back together. There will be seasons where you feel SO BUSY and everything is uncontrollable, but that is only preparing you for the times of peace, and the appreciation of peace. Bennett and I took a trip of a lifetime, then we were both finally home to adjust. It will take time. Everything will be ok in the end. There are times in my life where I do not schedule anything with my music, so I can be present for my kids when their Dad is gone. There will be times where you will not be able to get to where you want to be that day, that month, or that season. But it will be there and the harder the work the better the reward, right?
Over the weekend I was able to perform at the Ormond Beach Live Festival, and my husband said it was one of my best performances yet. All of those hard times in the last month allowed me to let go and let my music take over and give it everything I had. Every aspect in your life needs and deserves that. Hard work. And it can mean different things in anyone's life:
Hard Working Mama.
Work Hard, enjoy the reward. Embrace the suck, be hopeful for what is to come!